well as it seems it has been forever since i have been on. well ya have to get online to stay intouch with people. anyways life has been interesting. i am sure it will continue to be so for a good while.

well later today i have to go in for psyc evals. not cause there is anything wrong with me but cause my ex is going for sole custody....... cause he says that i am unfit to be the mother of my daughter granted my ex is not the natural father of my daughter but instead the adoptive father and everything turned south right after he adopted anna. well personally i think he pushed me into having him adopt her cause this was the only way that his mother was going to get any grandbabies, yep first brother is an occasionally recovering aa and drug user with mental issues. and my ex well didnt want children at all,  sister well she has two dogs and a happy much older husband who doesnt want kids, then there is the youngest who well solved that problem. so yeah doing this is the only way that his mother will have any grandbabies.

 so i get to sit and have myself evaluated so that i can keep my daughter. fun fun

and i can handle being in the same building as him and i have to be across the hall all day long.

well after several hours of still dling picts for my family i am still not yet done..... one of these days someone will tell the rest of my family that you do not have to send out every last picture that you take..... but goddess forbide that i do not save them all... cause the pict that i think is unimportant will be the pict that they ask if my grand rents have seen....

well it is getting to be that wonderful time of year yet again. faire starts in jsut several short days i am getting excited to be going there again.... and also dreading in cause of the long days and such. but the happy times do out weight the tiring and long hours.

To add to my already dispise of computers i nowget to dl a butt load of picts. pict by pict cause goddess forbide that they actually send them to me in a file instead of a pict by pict. i have yet to get through the first email....granted there is a load of really great landscapes of alaska. but at the current moment i am only at pict 40 and there is 54 on this email grrrrrr. some days i hate dail up even more than computers

i have a small feeling that i may not be finishing them all tonight if i get much more frustrated.... it all depends on how much longer i can hold out

well now that my family has found out that there is someone in this house that has a computer and that has access to the internet and such i am thinking that i need to make a separate account for the house yes i said for the house that i will check so that my inbox doesnt get so full so fast with everyone emailing me..... anyways tonight i am spending the time when anna is at VBS checking and dl'ing emails from my family so that my grandrents can look at them ect ect ect.... 

 so yeah i have to spend more time on the computer in which that i really hate...... ok i dont really hate it i just would like it to do what it is suppose to do more often...