I have been trying to post what has been going on with my papa for 2 days now and the computer keeps eating it so i am guessing that i am not suppose to open my mouth about it here so yall get the out of it.

Now for those that really have a clue and know what is going on can ya'll please give me a clue how i can do both of these things this season at faire and still manage to stay a wench make my boss money and end up keeping my kid.....

 the question is how do you manage to be damn near close to virginal (in a custody battle and he is trying to take away my daughter) and still be a wench?

ok there are other things that you all should know first my lawyer has already said that anything that happens while i am in garb is going to be thrown out because that is apart of my job of at faire. Granted this was after we had a talk aobut what i do up there and what i am suppose to be doing while i am working for the boss. Granted all i had to say is that i work for a clothing vendor and i am apart of the IWG and she said that there is no need for me to worry about anything that happens while i am in garb cause she will use the tactic of that is what she is suppose to be doing while she is on shire.

 ok so how does one go about still being a wench on shire and still stay virginal for the custody battle that i am facing? How can i make sure that the boss makes as much money as she did last year, and i can tell you that some of the sales were finished by me flirting up a storm in an innocent way( not touching any skin that would be/ could be considered ify)  i make sure that the only people that are not ify are the people that already are in the circle of trust.

ok i know the thoughts of the local madame but i know the innocence that is needed to help me keep my daughter is not going to help sales for my boss. and its not like i can just give up the job for the season till things cool off. money is very tight at the moment and giving up that income is not an option.

 so the question still remains how can i deal with all of this?

Ok so this has been a real hectic month. well on april 17 i turned 25 (not that i am complaining about my age or anything but ya knowit will make more sense in a bit. i spent the 17th and the 18th with friends so that i didnt have to deal with my (future ex{also explained later}) husband. anyways while i was waiting for friends to pick me up on the 20th to go away for the weekend, i got servede with divorce papers. so i moved in with my grandparents and got a lawyer. since then the wonderful Christopher (not the bio father of bananabutt) has sued me for custody of her, and now has her every weekend.

 Ok so i can say that my life is less stressful cause i am not dealing with him on a daily basis however i am always wondering what he will be doing next to twist  the knife in my heart more.......

i am currently without internet access at the house and am currently using my uncles computer... i am going to highjack the program that i need off his computer so that i can use my internet again on my computer and completely get caught up lwith everything.

anyways this is the reason why i have not been online for the last month...

 the next thing that i'll ask is for everyone to do what form of candles prayers etc that they all do for anna and I in our time of stress. especially during the weekends while anna is at her (adopted)father.

thanks everyone... hugs and love

Well, today we did a birthday party for banana butt (yes i know what a nick name for a little girl but her boyfriend thought it up and it has stuck) it was like everyother party my family has every tried to throw..... meaning you invite all kinds of people to come over and they tell you that they will let you know later if they can make it and then the day before i am calling going well are you coming???? and then gets the answer of well we are busy and this and that (not that i am bitching or anything it was partly my fault for having a birthday party on easter but being pagan i forget these little things.) any ways so my grandparents and a couple from faire show up to help us celebrate her birthday.... yeah (she will be 4 tomorrow) ack 11 more years till she can start dating is that enough time to sharpen all the swords needed to keep the boys away and at bay? anyways may be one day i'll remember what throwing a party is like in my family and have someone else do it......... yeah(saracism) only 9 more days till mine and i get to work from 8 to 5 that day..........

So once I get this all worked out in my head..... all will be right in the world. or at least in part of the world as i know it.